Its such a cold night tonight. Isn't it summer already?
I was so sleepy tonight, exams this morning, taking the night shift at work... I get off work at 10, I was glad I was able to be in bed by 11. I was glad I dozed off after a hot bath. I wasnt glad my neighbors were partying. Exams are finally over, you either get wasted or you sleep. I sleep. They get wasted.
There's no point lying in bed trying to sleep when I cant, I think I should just blog. Iff I would stop staring at Athelia blankly doing nothing, with my eyes half closed. No wait... my eyes are half open. No, they sound sleepier being half close.
My brain is so dead right now, I'd rather kill myself than to do a math question.
Sitting here.......
Oh my heater is on! It is so cold I needed to turn on the heater. It has been raining for the entire day... It reminds me of how I use to scream at my dog cause she was running in our garden under pouring rain, getting all wet and dirty, leaving dirty paw prints all over our house, rubbing herself on the carpet.... I miss my dog! =( I miss home.. Now I'm beginning to wonder if I've made the wrong decision to stay in Perth till January. Then again, there is no right or wrong anyway.
It reminds me of the time when I was sitting in the car, in front of his house, stupidly staring at nothing between raindrops on the windows, while he's gone. I feel so pathetic.
Woke up and made 4 slices of toast. Not hungry at all but please dont ask me why did I eat. Now I have to brush my teeth again! Pfft! I feel so lazy to brush my teeth again, but no way I'm gonna sleep without brushing my teeth. Maybe thats how and why my dentist told me I brush my teeth too much. Have you ever heard of people getting bad teeth cause they brush their teeth too much??? My teeth arent really bad, they just hurt sometimes. I'll just say I have sensitive teeth. That sounds better. My gums shrunk 1 or 2mm's.
I'm so tired but I cant sleep. Ahhhh.... I think I should fall asleep with Olivia Ong's voice...
Fuck it I've only been here for less than 4 months, I'm glad that there are loads of bees around me, but it turned put to be that most of the bees are actually flies in disguise... all wanting to get laid during their uni years. FML. There are only 4 possibilities. 1. I'm really attractive. (and kheng) 2. I'm really innocent and an easy target to trick me into sleeping with them. 3. I'm really slutty and people think that I'm easy. 4. It has got nothing to do with me, guys are just being horny.
I know... the first thing that popped into your mind is the way I dress. I dont wear skimpy clothes okay? The skimpiest one would be spaghettis which is totally normal. What I wear is NOTHING compared to what girls wear here. Plus, its really cold, I normally wear long sleeves most of the time, and carry a jacket wherever I go. Pfft. Wipe that off your head, Malaysia is a hot country!
I've only known this guy for 15mins and he's asking me to go to his house to do my assignments? WTH who's stupid enough to fall for that?
I told a friend of mine (now near 30 years old already, was studying in Australia, now working in Penang), and he was like "been there... done that..." Then I went speechless.
The people I know here will only be here for 2 or 3 years, depending on the courses that they are taking, Therefore, they're just looking for a temporary girl so they can have some fun in their uni life, then they dump you when they leave to go back to their own countries.
Good guys are so hard to find. They're either taken, gay or not interested in me. The good guy that is not taken, straight and interested in me, I just cant get myself to be interested in him back. The good guy that was once interested in me dumped me. The supposedly good guy that is interested in me and I might be interested back, turned out to be a bad guy. The bad guys... ahh lets just not talk about them.
Screw them all!
I want a hug =(
I need a hug =(
I hate Fi. The songs in her blog makes me cry.. (even more)
I had the worst day EVER at work today. Hopefully its the only day. I did nothing wrong! I'm so pissed I dont even know where to start blogging!
My work starts at 12. I had a dream that I woke up at 12, and was super late for work. Luckily I woke up at 10+ this morning. Woke up still traumatized. Spent too much time in the kitchen. Ate and left at around 11.40. Cycled like crazy. got there at 11.48. Got scolded for being late. Last week I reached 15mins early and they told me to get there earlier. Then I was there thinking, hey my shift starts at 12. If I'd be so kind to reach 15 mins early, you should be lucky enough that I'm wiling to get there 15mins earlier than I'm suppose to alright? Count your blessings you got such a punctual employee. Today I was late, later than the time I was told to reach, but still earlier than my shift. I got my own uniform now, didnt have to change my clothes so I just put on my apron and cap, and I'm off to the counter to serve customers. And its not even 12 yet!! I panicked cause they were giving me that look. I knew I was gonna get it later. Then after that Cecilia told me to get there early just so that I dont have to rush, can come in, breathe, settle down then only start working. Then I was there thinkin, even if I got there an hour early, and there's a line of customers outside, you think I get to take a breather mehhhhh??? I'd just work OT without being paid. So now that I'm there early, please count your blessings. I was 12 mins earlier than I was suppose to.
Then after that we had like 6 customers in line and I had to make 4 foot long subs from a telephone order. It says on the fax order form to have it toasted, but the word toasted is written at the back. I was standing in the middle of the sub making counter. Ezikel is putting the meat, cheese and toasting it. I'm doing the cheese toasting and salad. Cecilia is doing the salad. Ezikel didnt toast it. So i didnt toast it. then Cecilia didnt notice its written toasted as well. then VJ at the cashier counter scolded everybody. Just cause we were all super busy and frustrated, he's just doing the cashier. We had to take out all the salads from all 4 subs to toast it. Then Cecilia put 2 of the subs into 2 plastic bags, I'm stil wrapping the third one. I was cutting the foot long into half and Cecilia ask me to wrap it separately. So I did. I wrapped one foot long as two 6-inch subs and got scolded for that. He freakin said WRAP SEPARATELY. And he meant wrap them in 4 plastic bags separately. Like WTH? I'm cutting it then Cecilia screamed at me ask me all have to cut n wrap separately. Which I did cut and he told me to wrap separately so I did and I did WHAT wrong??? The line was long and super frustrating. Then VJ told me he just lost a customer. "I'm so angry that I wish I could find another way to express it" then I said "you told me to wrap it separately". Then he snapped back at me and said "Dont talk back at me" IN FRONT OF EVERYBODY! WTF I just repeated what he said n this is what I get? I DID NOTHING WRONG DAMMIT! Ask em to cut the sub cut the sub. I've cut it, all of them are cut alright? Still ask me to cut and wrap it separately. If you dont mean it by wrapping it into two 6-inch subs, then why tell me all thsoe things n i get the blame cause Cecilia is suppose to do the salad dressings and wrapping. Pfft!!!
Then Ezikel dropped a pepperoni when he passed the sub to me. And I got the blame just cause they were scolding me before that.
The line was long so when I refilled the tomatoes I left the empty cambro (the containers holding the vegies meat n everything) beside the microwave. It's where we leave empty cambros when we didnt have time to bring it to the back. Then Cecilia scolded me for not taking out the old tomatoes to put on top of the new tomatoes in the new cambro. The line was long and everyone was waiting. So I'm suppose to refill it cause that's more important than the people waiting in line?
If I do something wrong I'd admit it. I admit for being there later than the time that you asked me to. But I still started work 10 mins earlier than the time I'm suppose to and I followed your orders.
I had lunch but I was still super hungry all the while when I was working. And I had so little sleep thanks to my 5 year old house mates. They were wrecking up a Styrofoam container in the kitchen stabbing it, laughing and screaming. Then Jamie put junk food chips all over the carpet in Alex's room. She went out to get something and Jamie locked her out, dancing and wriggling in front of her at the sliding door and I was in the kitchen. That was my last straw. I had so little sleep, you guys woke me up, I went outside to ask you to tone down and you didnt. So I went and open the door for Alex to come in and Jamie freaking JULING me for that. He shot me an evil look, rolled his eyes and snatched the door and slammed it shut. Please grow up. Jamie's 21. Annalis is 19. Then Johnny's alarm went for 20 mins straight. URGH!!!!!! How to sleep lahhhhhh.
Had such a bad day today, after work saw 2 missed calls with an emergency sms from Rena. Called her 3 times and she didnt pick up. Went to her unit and she told me she needed me to act in her movie. Ok fine. So frustrated and stressed already, sending me emergency messages to tell me she needs an actress, the shooting is next week. What so emergency about that?????
Even the roses along the streets doesnt look nice today on my way home.
Some guy wolf-whistled me when I was cycling home. Freaking horny bastard.
It was so hard to concentrate in class ok? I slept so little last night. I had a V already. Not really really working. psychologically maybe.
David was in class. but he's 50% short. Deadline's today. It's worth 40% of the final exam mark. He says he's going to hand in tomorrow. Not sure if that's possible. He looks like a zombie.
This is how the tutorials look like just now.
Redbull. Coffee.
V.
Mother.
Coke. V.
Everyone's trying to survive on caffeine. Proves everyone stayed up late last night.
IM SO PISSED. AND ANNOYED!!!!!
Then again, there's no way I aint smiling for the camera.
Ok now i feel slightly better. Hopefully. Methinks.
Looking forward for work tomorrow! 1 down 3 more huge projects to go. Yay.
I happen to stumble upon the Miss World Malaysia 2009 website today, having Jonathan posted up a link on Facebook to ask everyone to vote for a fellow Leo-member. After watching Miss Singapore World, I wanted to see howthe finalists for this year's Miss Malaysia World look like. And I find the concept really disturbingly stupid. The tagline says "Beauty with a purpose". Like, wha? The pageant strives to make the country a better place. Like, wha??? Then there's this Toy Boy section, I think it only happens to Malaysian TV programs like, What a Women Want, or something like that. Quoted from the site, 'Show the world that you can make men be your plaything, that you can toy with them. Send it out, show the world just how powerful you are.' I was thinking wth? So whats the purpose of Miss Malaysia World? Playing with guys? and the guys are stupid enough to be filmed doing such embarrassing acts, what happened to men in Malaysia wei? It says 'Scroll over to make him dance', 'Click to take shirt off', 'click to make me show my ass', 'click to make me act like a cat'. Like wth? Next, man hunt will have clips of women written, 'scroll to see my boobs', 'click to show my undies', 'dress me like a french maid', and 'make me purr like a cat/bark like a bitch'.
'Beauty is Power, Use with caution' is as stupid as the whole concept. It makes women feel like a loser if they arent pretty. If you're not beautiful, you dont have power. Use with caution? Beauty is not a tool wei, only bimbos use it as a tool cause its the only thing they have - pretty face and big boobs. You have to rely on those to make you successful? The whole concept is stupid. Sheesh...
Its such a cold night tonight. Isn't it summer already?
I was so sleepy tonight, exams this morning, taking the night shift at work... I get off work at 10, I was glad I was able to be in bed by 11. I was glad I dozed off after a hot bath. I wasnt glad my neighbors were partying. Exams are finally over, you either get wasted or you sleep. I sleep. They get wasted.
There's no point lying in bed trying to sleep when I cant, I think I should just blog. Iff I would stop staring at Athelia blankly doing nothing, with my eyes half closed. No wait... my eyes are half open. No, they sound sleepier being half close.
My brain is so dead right now, I'd rather kill myself than to do a math question.
Sitting here.......
Oh my heater is on! It is so cold I needed to turn on the heater. It has been raining for the entire day... It reminds me of how I use to scream at my dog cause she was running in our garden under pouring rain, getting all wet and dirty, leaving dirty paw prints all over our house, rubbing herself on the carpet.... I miss my dog! =( I miss home.. Now I'm beginning to wonder if I've made the wrong decision to stay in Perth till January. Then again, there is no right or wrong anyway.
It reminds me of the time when I was sitting in the car, in front of his house, stupidly staring at nothing between raindrops on the windows, while he's gone. I feel so pathetic.
Woke up and made 4 slices of toast. Not hungry at all but please dont ask me why did I eat. Now I have to brush my teeth again! Pfft! I feel so lazy to brush my teeth again, but no way I'm gonna sleep without brushing my teeth. Maybe thats how and why my dentist told me I brush my teeth too much. Have you ever heard of people getting bad teeth cause they brush their teeth too much??? My teeth arent really bad, they just hurt sometimes. I'll just say I have sensitive teeth. That sounds better. My gums shrunk 1 or 2mm's.
I'm so tired but I cant sleep. Ahhhh.... I think I should fall asleep with Olivia Ong's voice...
Fuck it I've only been here for less than 4 months, I'm glad that there are loads of bees around me, but it turned put to be that most of the bees are actually flies in disguise... all wanting to get laid during their uni years. FML. There are only 4 possibilities. 1. I'm really attractive. (and kheng) 2. I'm really innocent and an easy target to trick me into sleeping with them. 3. I'm really slutty and people think that I'm easy. 4. It has got nothing to do with me, guys are just being horny.
I know... the first thing that popped into your mind is the way I dress. I dont wear skimpy clothes okay? The skimpiest one would be spaghettis which is totally normal. What I wear is NOTHING compared to what girls wear here. Plus, its really cold, I normally wear long sleeves most of the time, and carry a jacket wherever I go. Pfft. Wipe that off your head, Malaysia is a hot country!
I've only known this guy for 15mins and he's asking me to go to his house to do my assignments? WTH who's stupid enough to fall for that?
I told a friend of mine (now near 30 years old already, was studying in Australia, now working in Penang), and he was like "been there... done that..." Then I went speechless.
The people I know here will only be here for 2 or 3 years, depending on the courses that they are taking, Therefore, they're just looking for a temporary girl so they can have some fun in their uni life, then they dump you when they leave to go back to their own countries.
Good guys are so hard to find. They're either taken, gay or not interested in me. The good guy that is not taken, straight and interested in me, I just cant get myself to be interested in him back. The good guy that was once interested in me dumped me. The supposedly good guy that is interested in me and I might be interested back, turned out to be a bad guy. The bad guys... ahh lets just not talk about them.
Screw them all!
I want a hug =(
I need a hug =(
I hate Fi. The songs in her blog makes me cry.. (even more)
I had the worst day EVER at work today. Hopefully its the only day. I did nothing wrong! I'm so pissed I dont even know where to start blogging!
My work starts at 12. I had a dream that I woke up at 12, and was super late for work. Luckily I woke up at 10+ this morning. Woke up still traumatized. Spent too much time in the kitchen. Ate and left at around 11.40. Cycled like crazy. got there at 11.48. Got scolded for being late. Last week I reached 15mins early and they told me to get there earlier. Then I was there thinking, hey my shift starts at 12. If I'd be so kind to reach 15 mins early, you should be lucky enough that I'm wiling to get there 15mins earlier than I'm suppose to alright? Count your blessings you got such a punctual employee. Today I was late, later than the time I was told to reach, but still earlier than my shift. I got my own uniform now, didnt have to change my clothes so I just put on my apron and cap, and I'm off to the counter to serve customers. And its not even 12 yet!! I panicked cause they were giving me that look. I knew I was gonna get it later. Then after that Cecilia told me to get there early just so that I dont have to rush, can come in, breathe, settle down then only start working. Then I was there thinkin, even if I got there an hour early, and there's a line of customers outside, you think I get to take a breather mehhhhh??? I'd just work OT without being paid. So now that I'm there early, please count your blessings. I was 12 mins earlier than I was suppose to.
Then after that we had like 6 customers in line and I had to make 4 foot long subs from a telephone order. It says on the fax order form to have it toasted, but the word toasted is written at the back. I was standing in the middle of the sub making counter. Ezikel is putting the meat, cheese and toasting it. I'm doing the cheese toasting and salad. Cecilia is doing the salad. Ezikel didnt toast it. So i didnt toast it. then Cecilia didnt notice its written toasted as well. then VJ at the cashier counter scolded everybody. Just cause we were all super busy and frustrated, he's just doing the cashier. We had to take out all the salads from all 4 subs to toast it. Then Cecilia put 2 of the subs into 2 plastic bags, I'm stil wrapping the third one. I was cutting the foot long into half and Cecilia ask me to wrap it separately. So I did. I wrapped one foot long as two 6-inch subs and got scolded for that. He freakin said WRAP SEPARATELY. And he meant wrap them in 4 plastic bags separately. Like WTH? I'm cutting it then Cecilia screamed at me ask me all have to cut n wrap separately. Which I did cut and he told me to wrap separately so I did and I did WHAT wrong??? The line was long and super frustrating. Then VJ told me he just lost a customer. "I'm so angry that I wish I could find another way to express it" then I said "you told me to wrap it separately". Then he snapped back at me and said "Dont talk back at me" IN FRONT OF EVERYBODY! WTF I just repeated what he said n this is what I get? I DID NOTHING WRONG DAMMIT! Ask em to cut the sub cut the sub. I've cut it, all of them are cut alright? Still ask me to cut and wrap it separately. If you dont mean it by wrapping it into two 6-inch subs, then why tell me all thsoe things n i get the blame cause Cecilia is suppose to do the salad dressings and wrapping. Pfft!!!
Then Ezikel dropped a pepperoni when he passed the sub to me. And I got the blame just cause they were scolding me before that.
The line was long so when I refilled the tomatoes I left the empty cambro (the containers holding the vegies meat n everything) beside the microwave. It's where we leave empty cambros when we didnt have time to bring it to the back. Then Cecilia scolded me for not taking out the old tomatoes to put on top of the new tomatoes in the new cambro. The line was long and everyone was waiting. So I'm suppose to refill it cause that's more important than the people waiting in line?
If I do something wrong I'd admit it. I admit for being there later than the time that you asked me to. But I still started work 10 mins earlier than the time I'm suppose to and I followed your orders.
I had lunch but I was still super hungry all the while when I was working. And I had so little sleep thanks to my 5 year old house mates. They were wrecking up a Styrofoam container in the kitchen stabbing it, laughing and screaming. Then Jamie put junk food chips all over the carpet in Alex's room. She went out to get something and Jamie locked her out, dancing and wriggling in front of her at the sliding door and I was in the kitchen. That was my last straw. I had so little sleep, you guys woke me up, I went outside to ask you to tone down and you didnt. So I went and open the door for Alex to come in and Jamie freaking JULING me for that. He shot me an evil look, rolled his eyes and snatched the door and slammed it shut. Please grow up. Jamie's 21. Annalis is 19. Then Johnny's alarm went for 20 mins straight. URGH!!!!!! How to sleep lahhhhhh.
Had such a bad day today, after work saw 2 missed calls with an emergency sms from Rena. Called her 3 times and she didnt pick up. Went to her unit and she told me she needed me to act in her movie. Ok fine. So frustrated and stressed already, sending me emergency messages to tell me she needs an actress, the shooting is next week. What so emergency about that?????
Even the roses along the streets doesnt look nice today on my way home.
Some guy wolf-whistled me when I was cycling home. Freaking horny bastard.
It was so hard to concentrate in class ok? I slept so little last night. I had a V already. Not really really working. psychologically maybe.
David was in class. but he's 50% short. Deadline's today. It's worth 40% of the final exam mark. He says he's going to hand in tomorrow. Not sure if that's possible. He looks like a zombie.
This is how the tutorials look like just now.
Redbull. Coffee.
V.
Mother.
Coke. V.
Everyone's trying to survive on caffeine. Proves everyone stayed up late last night.
IM SO PISSED. AND ANNOYED!!!!!
Then again, there's no way I aint smiling for the camera.
Ok now i feel slightly better. Hopefully. Methinks.
Looking forward for work tomorrow! 1 down 3 more huge projects to go. Yay.
I happen to stumble upon the Miss World Malaysia 2009 website today, having Jonathan posted up a link on Facebook to ask everyone to vote for a fellow Leo-member. After watching Miss Singapore World, I wanted to see howthe finalists for this year's Miss Malaysia World look like. And I find the concept really disturbingly stupid. The tagline says "Beauty with a purpose". Like, wha? The pageant strives to make the country a better place. Like, wha??? Then there's this Toy Boy section, I think it only happens to Malaysian TV programs like, What a Women Want, or something like that. Quoted from the site, 'Show the world that you can make men be your plaything, that you can toy with them. Send it out, show the world just how powerful you are.' I was thinking wth? So whats the purpose of Miss Malaysia World? Playing with guys? and the guys are stupid enough to be filmed doing such embarrassing acts, what happened to men in Malaysia wei? It says 'Scroll over to make him dance', 'Click to take shirt off', 'click to make me show my ass', 'click to make me act like a cat'. Like wth? Next, man hunt will have clips of women written, 'scroll to see my boobs', 'click to show my undies', 'dress me like a french maid', and 'make me purr like a cat/bark like a bitch'.
'Beauty is Power, Use with caution' is as stupid as the whole concept. It makes women feel like a loser if they arent pretty. If you're not beautiful, you dont have power. Use with caution? Beauty is not a tool wei, only bimbos use it as a tool cause its the only thing they have - pretty face and big boobs. You have to rely on those to make you successful? The whole concept is stupid. Sheesh...
Thursday, April 22, 2010 @ 8:35 PM
